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Feb. 20th, 2017 07:08 pmOOC
Name: Rae
Preferred pronouns: She/Her
Over 16?: uhhhhhhhh yeah lil bit
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Time zone: Eastern
IC
Type: OU
Name: Morgan Jones
Canon: The Walking Dead
Canon point: S7 E2; The Well
Age: Mid 40s.
Appearance:
( morgan's actor is lennie james who is british but morgan is american. the fandom freaked the first time lennie was interviewed for the show. good job, lennie. he was in snatch so i already knew. )
Personality:
Morgan is introduced to the audience as a man who has already suffered his first great loss: his wife, Jenny, was bitten, succumbed to the fever, and turned. They had been on their way to Atlanta with their son, Duane, to a supposed refugee center, but losing her left them (as Morgan himself puts it) frozen. In the wake of this loss, trapped by his own grief, Morgan still has Duane to look after. His purpose as father anchors him, keeps him from drifting too far. He works to give his son as much normalcy as possible: continuing to pray before eating; correcting his grammar; comforting and protecting him.
Morgan's protective and nurturing nature shines through almost immediately. He risks his safety to save Rick, a complete stranger to him. Once satisfied that he poses no danger, Morgan readily takes it upon himself to look after Rick, to acquaint him with what has become the state of their world, teaching him how to take out the walkers and sharing their supplies with him.
Even as he does so, Jenny continues to literally haunt him in her reanimated form. While Rick moves on to find his own family, Morgan stays behind, driven by his duty to honor his wife. His devotion makes it his responsibility to put her down before he can move on, to not leave her roaming and allow the last vestiges of her to rest. Yet when he sets a rifle scope upon her, steeling himself to finally pull the trigger and move on, he sees only the mother of his child, the woman he loves, and he cannot do it. And so they stay frozen until this failing comes back to take what he has not yet lost: Duane.
And so Morgan becomes a man with no purpose, a husband without a wife and a father without a son. Through his grief and his desperation, he begins to lose sight of himself and detach from reality. Subconsciously, he seeks a new duty to latch onto, and he finds one through his loss and his guilt, his wounded faith: he comes to believe that due to his failings, it now falls to him to "clear." Neither good nor bad, not a man of strength but a weak implement whose purpose is simply to cleanse, he fortifies the town and he makes it his unending task to wipe away any threat he encounters, be it the undead or a living person. He drifts farther and farther, protecting his empty stronghold from even the living who would draw near, and when Rick finally crosses paths with him once more, all he has left is his anger, his grief, and his instinct. So removed from reality, so accustomed to loss and isolated from the living, he does not even recognize initially that Rick is truly who or what he seems to be.
Morgan is not only stricken by his compounded grief, but also blame he bears toward himself for the loss of Duane, which would have been prevented had he only been able to do what he knew he had to. He sees himself as weak for having failed to protect his son and having let his wife down. Having failed in the duties he has held most dear, he has lost hold of himself. At this point, he does not even wish to go on living - he is ready for escape, but his life is not his own to take, a twisted perception of the beliefs he had once found such comfort in.
Rick goes back to his people and Morgan remains, alone, his mind stuck in the past as he lives in his grief, never moving forward as his grief hands about him and fails to process. And so he meets Eastman, a man who takes him in, who refuses his demands to be killed, who reignites in Morgan a belief in life, in hope, in people. He shares his practice of aikido, and the philosophy therein, to cause minimal harm while protecting oneself. Though Eastman is soon killed, Morgan has found, through their friendship, peace and hope. He has learned to move forward and found a belief to drive him.
Having promised to find people, he tracks Rick so he can join his group, seeking out that last connection he has to the world. He finds clashing views here, a challenge to his new beliefs, and eventually, is forced to take a life to save another - through this, he holds on to his philosophy, but he does find it challenged. As he says, "people can try and set you in the right direction, but they can't show you the way. You got to find that for yourself, and I thought I had it. I did. But I'm just fumbling through."
And so he presses onward. Morgan has just found and joined another community, found a leader who respects and seeks his advice, who appreciates his restraint and consideration. He is a man who is fighting internally to retain that and to find and hold fast to a purpose. He is a man of conviction who defends himself capably but does not kill, a man who helps those that he finds in trouble, who protects others, who has pulled himself back from beyond the grief of unimaginable loss, who has rejected his own perceived weakness to find renewed strength. He is not quick to anger nor to judge, but he is cautious and skeptical. He is not violent or aggressive, but prepared to stand tall when confronted. He is decisive, calm, thoughtful and appreciative of what remains in the world, every bit of life and glimpse of beauty that persists even in humanity's darkest hour. He retains humor, kindness, and warmth. He looks after others, always enacting those nurturing instincts that were thwarted in his own family's loss. And he is, as he says, fumbling through. Doing his best.
Despite any challenges, little doubt remains that Morgan truly believes, not despite but rather because of how much has been taken from him, that life - all life - is precious.
Background/AU details: here is his page on the fandom wiki
Strengths & weaknesses:
Morgan is extremely capable in hand-to-hand combat, using his staff to efficiently deflect attacks, disarm and disable foes, and eliminate walkers. He has excellent strategic defensive skills, having constructed a complicated network of traps designed to catch both walkers and living trespassers alike. Having come through the other end of his breakdown, he now possesses a calm coolness that he retains in confrontation. He has become moderately skilled at tracking and scavenges well.
In terms of his weaknesses, Morgan retains an undercurrent of emotional fragility and may be prone to backsliding mentally. Though he has moved on physically, the memories of Jenny and Duane remain with him and though he does seek connections with others, he will not readily share his own losses. Their loss will complicate his relationships with others, and moments reminiscent of them may shake him. His reluctance to kill or to be complicit to killing can certainly prove to be a weakness.
Depowering/humanization: He's just your standard human who's also infected with a mysterious walker illness that will turn him into a zombie if he dies. No big.
Placement preference: Apocalypse survivor who is somehow a pacifist seems like a neat choice for the Barrayarans but either side would have its fun points. I MEAN he's gonna have problems with what's happening either way.
However, if the Barrayarans would just deal with his constant dissent by murdering his face, y'know, that'd be an issue for keeping him in game probably. Because he'll never stop harping on his ALL LIFE IS PRECIOUS thing, really.
Character goals: SO, from his canon point, Morgan has just killed a person for the first time since adopting his current philosophy. It's obviously complicated things for him, and though he's not abandoned his principles by any means, it does indicate that he recognizes that, sometimes, you might be forced to take one life to save another. That's one small crack in the belief system that's holding this poor man's traumatized mind together, and this game environment environment just might inflict a few more - we'll see! But, I want to play him through this uncertainty, and see how a different sort of dire life situation might affect the way he processes that. As mentioned, he has two castmates here, though both are complicated. He's met Daryl, but Daryl hasn't yet met him at his canon point. Morgan also never gets to meet Beth, though he'd have heard about her, since her sister is alive and well with the group. So it'll be interesting for him to meet her and see how they relate to one another, as well as how he handles Daryl not knowing who he is.
Sample:
talkin 2 beth
Name: Rae
Preferred pronouns: She/Her
Over 16?: uhhhhhhhh yeah lil bit
Contact:
Time zone: Eastern
IC
Type: OU
Name: Morgan Jones
Canon: The Walking Dead
Canon point: S7 E2; The Well
Age: Mid 40s.
Appearance:
( morgan's actor is lennie james who is british but morgan is american. the fandom freaked the first time lennie was interviewed for the show. good job, lennie. he was in snatch so i already knew. )
Personality:
Morgan is introduced to the audience as a man who has already suffered his first great loss: his wife, Jenny, was bitten, succumbed to the fever, and turned. They had been on their way to Atlanta with their son, Duane, to a supposed refugee center, but losing her left them (as Morgan himself puts it) frozen. In the wake of this loss, trapped by his own grief, Morgan still has Duane to look after. His purpose as father anchors him, keeps him from drifting too far. He works to give his son as much normalcy as possible: continuing to pray before eating; correcting his grammar; comforting and protecting him.
Morgan's protective and nurturing nature shines through almost immediately. He risks his safety to save Rick, a complete stranger to him. Once satisfied that he poses no danger, Morgan readily takes it upon himself to look after Rick, to acquaint him with what has become the state of their world, teaching him how to take out the walkers and sharing their supplies with him.
Even as he does so, Jenny continues to literally haunt him in her reanimated form. While Rick moves on to find his own family, Morgan stays behind, driven by his duty to honor his wife. His devotion makes it his responsibility to put her down before he can move on, to not leave her roaming and allow the last vestiges of her to rest. Yet when he sets a rifle scope upon her, steeling himself to finally pull the trigger and move on, he sees only the mother of his child, the woman he loves, and he cannot do it. And so they stay frozen until this failing comes back to take what he has not yet lost: Duane.
And so Morgan becomes a man with no purpose, a husband without a wife and a father without a son. Through his grief and his desperation, he begins to lose sight of himself and detach from reality. Subconsciously, he seeks a new duty to latch onto, and he finds one through his loss and his guilt, his wounded faith: he comes to believe that due to his failings, it now falls to him to "clear." Neither good nor bad, not a man of strength but a weak implement whose purpose is simply to cleanse, he fortifies the town and he makes it his unending task to wipe away any threat he encounters, be it the undead or a living person. He drifts farther and farther, protecting his empty stronghold from even the living who would draw near, and when Rick finally crosses paths with him once more, all he has left is his anger, his grief, and his instinct. So removed from reality, so accustomed to loss and isolated from the living, he does not even recognize initially that Rick is truly who or what he seems to be.
Morgan is not only stricken by his compounded grief, but also blame he bears toward himself for the loss of Duane, which would have been prevented had he only been able to do what he knew he had to. He sees himself as weak for having failed to protect his son and having let his wife down. Having failed in the duties he has held most dear, he has lost hold of himself. At this point, he does not even wish to go on living - he is ready for escape, but his life is not his own to take, a twisted perception of the beliefs he had once found such comfort in.
Rick goes back to his people and Morgan remains, alone, his mind stuck in the past as he lives in his grief, never moving forward as his grief hands about him and fails to process. And so he meets Eastman, a man who takes him in, who refuses his demands to be killed, who reignites in Morgan a belief in life, in hope, in people. He shares his practice of aikido, and the philosophy therein, to cause minimal harm while protecting oneself. Though Eastman is soon killed, Morgan has found, through their friendship, peace and hope. He has learned to move forward and found a belief to drive him.
Having promised to find people, he tracks Rick so he can join his group, seeking out that last connection he has to the world. He finds clashing views here, a challenge to his new beliefs, and eventually, is forced to take a life to save another - through this, he holds on to his philosophy, but he does find it challenged. As he says, "people can try and set you in the right direction, but they can't show you the way. You got to find that for yourself, and I thought I had it. I did. But I'm just fumbling through."
And so he presses onward. Morgan has just found and joined another community, found a leader who respects and seeks his advice, who appreciates his restraint and consideration. He is a man who is fighting internally to retain that and to find and hold fast to a purpose. He is a man of conviction who defends himself capably but does not kill, a man who helps those that he finds in trouble, who protects others, who has pulled himself back from beyond the grief of unimaginable loss, who has rejected his own perceived weakness to find renewed strength. He is not quick to anger nor to judge, but he is cautious and skeptical. He is not violent or aggressive, but prepared to stand tall when confronted. He is decisive, calm, thoughtful and appreciative of what remains in the world, every bit of life and glimpse of beauty that persists even in humanity's darkest hour. He retains humor, kindness, and warmth. He looks after others, always enacting those nurturing instincts that were thwarted in his own family's loss. And he is, as he says, fumbling through. Doing his best.
Despite any challenges, little doubt remains that Morgan truly believes, not despite but rather because of how much has been taken from him, that life - all life - is precious.
Background/AU details: here is his page on the fandom wiki
Strengths & weaknesses:
Morgan is extremely capable in hand-to-hand combat, using his staff to efficiently deflect attacks, disarm and disable foes, and eliminate walkers. He has excellent strategic defensive skills, having constructed a complicated network of traps designed to catch both walkers and living trespassers alike. Having come through the other end of his breakdown, he now possesses a calm coolness that he retains in confrontation. He has become moderately skilled at tracking and scavenges well.
In terms of his weaknesses, Morgan retains an undercurrent of emotional fragility and may be prone to backsliding mentally. Though he has moved on physically, the memories of Jenny and Duane remain with him and though he does seek connections with others, he will not readily share his own losses. Their loss will complicate his relationships with others, and moments reminiscent of them may shake him. His reluctance to kill or to be complicit to killing can certainly prove to be a weakness.
Depowering/humanization: He's just your standard human who's also infected with a mysterious walker illness that will turn him into a zombie if he dies. No big.
Placement preference: Apocalypse survivor who is somehow a pacifist seems like a neat choice for the Barrayarans but either side would have its fun points. I MEAN he's gonna have problems with what's happening either way.
However, if the Barrayarans would just deal with his constant dissent by murdering his face, y'know, that'd be an issue for keeping him in game probably. Because he'll never stop harping on his ALL LIFE IS PRECIOUS thing, really.
Character goals: SO, from his canon point, Morgan has just killed a person for the first time since adopting his current philosophy. It's obviously complicated things for him, and though he's not abandoned his principles by any means, it does indicate that he recognizes that, sometimes, you might be forced to take one life to save another. That's one small crack in the belief system that's holding this poor man's traumatized mind together, and this game environment environment just might inflict a few more - we'll see! But, I want to play him through this uncertainty, and see how a different sort of dire life situation might affect the way he processes that. As mentioned, he has two castmates here, though both are complicated. He's met Daryl, but Daryl hasn't yet met him at his canon point. Morgan also never gets to meet Beth, though he'd have heard about her, since her sister is alive and well with the group. So it'll be interesting for him to meet her and see how they relate to one another, as well as how he handles Daryl not knowing who he is.
Sample:
talkin 2 beth
